Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Year's Eve!

It's a low key night around here. Grammy and Pop-pop are up for a visit so Matthew is a happy little boy! We had a yummy dinner of snacks and are watching tv until the ball drops later.

Matthew took a later nap today so he's staying up for a little while longer. He really loves to visit with his Grammy and Pop-pop so we figure we can let him stay up as a little treat. For a special New Year's Eve treat I made a chocolate trifle and we let Matthew have some.

He made just a little bit of a mess.
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Maybe a little smudge by his cheek?
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and for a special New Year's treat, here's a video of what we had to clean up.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Reflections

With the year (and the decade) coming to a close I find myself, along with most people, taking a moment and reflecting on the changes in my life. The last decade has been filled with ups and downs to say the least.

In 2001 I got married. It was a beautiful day filled with rain and snow and sun and ice. I can remember clearly the anticipation of that day and how long it seemed to take for it to get here. I remember just wanting to see Matt at the end of the aisle. It was all I could have dreamed of and more.

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Three weeks later I was devestated by the death of my beloved grandmother. She was my rock and I still find myself shedding many tears over her huge absence from my life. She would have just loved Matthew and I ache for him to know her.


This is a picture of her and me at my wedding. I gave her my throw-a-way bouquet and before I did it the photographer captured a moment I will forever be grateful for. See the look on her face? That was the look of love from an amazing woman and everyone who knew her was forever changed.
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Here's another of her from my bridal shower. I miss that laugh.
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In July of 2001 we moved into what would in 2003 become our first house! It was a small 2 bedroom condo but coming from our tiny 1 bedroom apartment with no laundry room we loved it. It did us well for a long time until annoying neighbors and walls closing in on us helped us to decide it was time to upgrade.

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May of 2004 was another devestating loss to my family. My dad passed away after a long fight with lung Cancer. He was a good man who was tough on me, but taught me a lot about life and never giving up. He was so excited for Matt and me to have children and I mourn the lost relationship Matthew will never have with him.

Here he is at a Phillies game just a few months before he was diagnosed.

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In March of 2006 we broke ground on our new townhouse that would pretty much double our living space! We were so excited and despite many setbacks (such as the house being done almost a year after it was supposed to be done) we still love it. We have a never ending list of projects and plan to be here another 3-5 years.

Here's a few pictures of our journey to it being built.

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Once we had decided to start building our house we realized it was time to be serious about this baby making business. Due to my polycystic ovarian syndrome the chances of us conceiving on our own were very slim and we didn't want to waste any more time so off to the Reproductive Endochronologist we went.

After two failed cycles of injectibles/IUI we were blessed with the most beautiful sight! A positive pregnancy test! We soon learned that not one but two little babies were on their way to us!

Here's an ultrasound picture of the day we found out there were two.
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This picture still hurts my heart because it's proof they were real and that what happened to us really happened. Sometimes it's easy to let myself forget, makes it more bearable. But it is part of our sad truth. On July 5th 2007 we found out sweet Baby B did not make it. And because of her passing my body went into labor on July 11th and our little boy was not big enough to survive it. There is some small comfort in the fact that they knew no pain, no heartache or sorrow and that the warmth of my womb and the eternal love of God is all they know. But there are times when their loss makes me want to crawl into a hole and stop moving.


Coming back from our vacation to the Outer Banks that year I was renewed and more determined than ever to bring a child into my home. We started right back at the dr's and found success with our first cycle!

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Just one this time though.
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Here's a progression of my growing baby belly!

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In June we were once again shaken by another loss. This one of my mother. She passed away the night before my baby shower and I still am not really able to talk about it. My list of regrets with her is long and I have to remind myself daily that I know she loved me and she knows I loved her and that's what matters.

Here is her and I at my cousin Mary's graduation.
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On July 4th this picture was taken.
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And then on July 8 this one (by the way, this was after already a full 24 hours of waiting, waiting, waiting).
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And then finally, on July 9th he was ready to arrive! Matthew Edwin McMichael, Jr. was born at 5:58 in the morning weighing 6lbs and 6ozs.
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Our family core was shaken one more time when in September of 2008, just a few short months after my mom's passing we got the horrible news that my Aunt Cathy had also passed away. Shell-shocked would be a good word to describe it. How could a family endure so much loss in such a short period of time.

She loved Matthew and called me daily to check on him. And I wish I had more patience on the phone with her. But once again, regrets do nobody any good.

Here is possibly one of the last pictures we have of her. She had come up to finally meet our little man and fell head over heels. In fact she would hardly let him go all day.
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Matthew's first year of life went by so quickly!
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too quickly
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He took his first steps on July 27, 2009, shortly after his first birthday and what would have been my mom's 52nd birthday.
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And now he's a walking, talking, ornery toddler! He fills our days with joy and love and so much laughter.

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It's definitly been a decade of up's and down's. But that's what life is isn't it? The good times get you through the bad and you just keep walking through the sad knowing something happier is around the corner. You take your lessons when you find them and count your blessings before you go to bed each night.

I thank you, my family and friends and friends that are family. Without you all I never would have gotten through the bad times and I'm happy you were there to help celebrate the good!

From my family to yours I hope this next decade is your best ever!
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Wordless Wednesday--Filling Daddy's Shoes

He's got a long way to go until they fit but he's already trying to fill daddy's shoes!


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Merry Christmas

So I'm a little late, but it's a busy season and made that much busier by the little man running around my house. I've finally found homes for most of the new toys that he got and it seems as soon as I put them away he pulls them back out. So I've given up trying for now and decided to just let him explore all his new fun toys. So far he loves filling up his shopping cart and pushing it around the house and then knocking it over and sitting on the side of it.

Anyway back to Christmas morning. We woke up early here to give him time with his presents before we left to go visit with family. He didn't quite get what was going on. In fact he really had little interest in opening gifts but would tear paper off when we would tear a piece and he could see that something fun was inside. Right away he was enamored by his wagon full of legos and all of his books.

He was very spoiled by our family and we are all so thankful for all of you and for loving our little man as much as we do.

It's a hard balance on Christmas to remember those not with us. It's painful to know there should be three little kids tearing through gifts on Christmas morning. But I know they're with us and watching over us and sharing in the fun their little brother has.

Here are a few pictures from our day.

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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I know

I'm way behind, I need to update about Christmas and a whole bunch of other things. For now I'm here because I started a new blog tonight that will actually begin on January 1st.

I'll still keep up with this one as the other one is going to be a photographic journey through a year of Matthew's life and all the changes that goes on between 18 months and 2 and a half years!

I hope you'll follow that one too!

http://measureayearofmj.blogspot.com/2009/12/here-i-go-again.html

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Hershey Park Happy!

Despite the warnings of a blizzard we headed out for our yearly tradition of going to Hershey Park the weekend before Christmas. Getting there was fine, there wasn't even any snow at all until we got right outside of Hershey. Getting back was a little rougher but we made it.

They were closing early so we rushed through Chocolate World to get to the park.

Matthew was very excited about the big tree they had there!

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He even kept asking for more of it.

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Here's the three of us in front of the tree.

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After doing their new Chocolate Tasting Tour and the Factory Tour and buying half the store out of chocolate we bundled Matthew up to head into the park.

Despite being a little snow covered, he was plenty warm!

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It was beautiful there! And we had a great time with the best friends ever!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

On a Roll

So I'm rolling with my newfound love of experimenting in the kitchen and decided today to try and make home made cinnamon rolls for Christmas morning. Our Christmas Day is going to be very hectic and we're pretty much getting up at 5 to give Matthew time to open and play with his presents a little bit before we are off to visit family in three different places before our final destination of my inlaws house for a couple days. While I am excited to see everyone, it's still going to be hectic. Perhaps next year we'll invite people to come to us.

Anyway, I thought cinnamon rolls would be a good Christmas morning breakfast. Something I can make ahead of time and heat up for us to eat while we open gifts.

It was a similar process to the bread.

Mixing in the mixer

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Kneading it on a floured surface

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I proofed it for about 90 minutes in a warmed oven and it went from

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After it was finished proofing I had to punch it down.

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And then roll it out and spread melted butter and then a mixture of sugar and cinnamon on it.

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And then roll it up, slice it and put it in a pan.

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Once sliced it had to proof again for 45 minutes.

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After 20 minutes in the oven and being glazed the final result is pure yumminess.

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Want one?

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Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Wordless Wednesday--Chhhheeeessseee!

Matthew taking a picture of mommy taking a picture of Matthew.

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Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Kitchen Creativity

Today I decided to try my hand at baking home-made bread.

I was excited to use my dough hook for the first time ever in the almost 9 years I've owned my kitchenaid.

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Quickly dough formed to look more like...welll...bread dough.

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Then I turned it out on to the counter to knead it to the right consistency.

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After 90 minutes in the oven my dough went from

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Finally it was time to form it into loaves of bread and score it. A quick egg white wash and into the oven it went!

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28 minutes later it was ready and the house smelled so good!

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I served it alongside of some chicken noodle soup that cooked in the crockpot all day. I even made home made noodles for that.

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It was a big hit at dinner. And Matthew loved the bread! He even said "mooooaaahhh beh" (translation--more bread).