Friday, January 30, 2009

He Jumps!

In fear he would break his excersaucer we decided to buy Matthew a jumparoo tonight. We even let him stay up a little late while daddy put it together. He got in and circled all the way around it examining every toy.




and then finally...he jumped

Saturday, January 24, 2009

5 Seconds to Meltdown...4...3...

As most of you who have met Matthew know, he is a very calm, content little guy. But he does have one moment of the day where you need to very quickly proceed with what you're doing to make him happy. If not you will bear witness to a 0 to 60 meltdown in about 5 seconds.

That time of the day occurs after bathtime. You can take all the time in the world lotioning him up and playing little games like grabbing his feet. But once those pajamas are on his little body you have about 5 minutes to get downstairs and in the kitchen and make him a bottle.

He's learned over time that pajamas mean a bottle and bedtime and you better not deviate from that.

The following is a picture tonight of me testing the patience of a boy who has been in his pajamas for 4 and a half minutes and sees no sign of a bottle coming near him. I tried the new hat we got as part of his spring clothes and he looked so cute I had to take a picture. But first we had to come downstairs. And then I had to find the camera. And then the first picture didn't show both eyes. You get the picture. Or actually you will as soon as you finish reading this sentence.


But you have to admit...he does look cute in the hat.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

The Lion Says....

Matthew's been discovering new sounds lately. This one is a current fave!

Friday, January 9, 2009

Happy 6 Months Little Guy!!

Six months ago Matthew Edwin made his grand entrance. I don't know how we lived so long without him.

Here he is 6 months ago in his carseat:

and today:
It's such a cliche but still I ask...where has the time gone?

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Check Out My New Skills!

Hi, this is Matthew! I'm asking mommy to type this for me to show you my new tricks!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Life and Loss

Reflecting on the year behind us a thread was posted recently on a message board I am a member of asking us to sum up the year in two words.

My two words? Life and loss.


Obviously the birth of my son was the greatest moment of my life thus far. The fact that I gathered up my crumbled soul after losing the twins to try again was an amazing moment for me, one that I don't take lightly. It was a hard 9 months, and having him in my arms in worth every night of panic that kept me from sleeping for almost 3 months. He is the most amazing child. His smile will melt you instantly. And the excitement he is starting to show for everything that surrounds him is simply inspiring. This little boy, in all his tiny glory, has captivated me. The miracle of life is amazing. The fact that he started out as someting as tiny as a sesame seed and then developed into a working body, with organs and tissue and skin and's just incredible. The love I have for him is endless, I can't even begin to put it into words.


My mom passed away. Part of me hated to see 2008 pass because my mom was alive in 2008. I don't know why that strikes me so hard but it does. My life is filled with a million regrets with her that I try to move passed each day. Everyone would act differently if only we knew when this precious life was going to come to an end. We can only live our life with the knowledge that is in front of us. Unfortunately it's a lesson learned the hard way and losing her so suddenly and devestatingly has caused me to appreciate the family I have left. I love her and miss her tremendously. I wish she could have met my son. But I have faith that she knows him anyway and that she's up in heaven keeping watch over Daniel and Hope until I am called Home.

Not only did this year cause me to lose my mother, I also lost my Aunt Cathy, who was her sister. The fact that she died still doesn't make sense to me. That one family could lose two siblings so quickly is staggering.

I like to think Matthew's birth has brought some healing to my grieving family. There's something about a birth of a child that can fill your soul with joy and give relief to the heaviness that weighs on your heart.

Life goes by in the blink of an eye. My new year's wishes to all of you is to hug those you love twice as much as you did last year.