Ugh, I Did It Again

We've been busy enjoying life and haven't been posting here. I really need to be better about it. To make up for it here's a video of Matthew playing with his train set. It's a long one but worth it if you wait until the end!

His Future's So Bright (Wordless Wednesday)

He's gotta wear shades!

And Time Marches On

When Matthew was five months old we realized it was time to get him a high chair.



He was so tiny you can barely see him sitting in it! He enjoyed his new view of the world and loved being able to sit with us while we ate dinner.



In April, as we were decorating rice krispie treat eggs for Easter, we took what would be the last picture of him in his highchair. He had decided soon after that big boys sit at the table and never went back.



I'm not sure why we kept it around so long after that. Part laziness, part denial. Today we decided to pack it away to make room for Santa and the (K-I-T-C-H-E-N) that he's bringing him for Christmas.

These moments are always so bittersweet. There may be another baby that uses the highchair someday, but there won't be another baby Matthew that uses it.

Here's Matthew standing with daddy before he took it out to his car to take to storage.

Bye high chair!

Watch the Wind Go By

Listen to this.

I heard it tonight while we were at dinner. And it made me fall in love with Matt again. I love him. I've always loved him and I always will love him. But every once in a while in our busy, every day lives something triggers a feeling in me and I fall all over again. Just like the first moment I saw him in the mall and knew I had come "home." And like the moment I laid in his arms as the life we had known lay in a heap at our feet after we lost the twins and knew that no matter how devestated I felt, I was not alone. And like the moment I first saw him hold Matthew.

Not all the moments are big monumental ones. Some are small but they're still special. One weekend when I was still in school and we were visiting his parent's house when they lived in Pittsburgh, I had been up late the night before hand writing a paper since it was before laptops existed in our home and when I woke up the next morning and came downstairs he had typed up my paper for me.

At dinner, rising above the crowd noise I heard this song. And it brought me back to our life before children. Before loss. Before toddlers. It's hard to remember times like that existed. I love my life, and the chaos that children bring, but it's nice to fall again every now and then. To be brought back to the center of what our family is. And dream of the day when Matthew is off in his own home with his own family and Matt and I are old and rocking on our porch. When we have all the time in the world for each other again instead of just stolen moments after Matthew goes to bed.

I love him.

Where Have I Been?

Gosh, it's been a month since I've been here! Wow! Where have I been?

Oh yeah, here:


And going there took a lot of preparation to get ready. And we were there for two weeks. And then there was the week of depression when I got back. Anyway, I'm back and I promise to do better.

Check Out Our New Duds!

So I was kind of forced to redesign the blog when my old background disappeared, but I am in love. Blogger added all kinds of new features to design with and it was a lot of fun picking a new look! I hope you enjoy it and I hope it gets me blogging more!!

A Few New Videos

Matthew has had quite the imagination lately! He just amazes us!

Here's a few videos I took of him this morning.







We're busy busy here in the McMichael family. We leave for our annual trek down to the Outer Banks in a little over a week and we are so excited! Enjoy these videos!